10 years ago...

ten years ago... my life changed...

i didn't know then how, what nor what would become of me...

i remember feeling like i was looking into a dark pit...

a pit so dark, so expanse that i could not begin to describe...

so vast that i could not fathom reaching the other end...

but i knew there would be light...

of some sort...

but i never imagined what God had in store for me...

and i didn't dare believe...

not for one second...

that it would be as good as it is...

that when i said to Him that there had better be a good reason...

that there had better be something great and not just good in store for me...

that i was just venting...

that He was actually listening...

and not judging...

nor angry at my immaturity...

and selfishness...

but He did have a plan...

and what an amazing plan it was...

and how foolish...

and stupid...

and faithless...

i was...

to not trust...

and believe...

and know...

that He...

my Savior...

my Lord...

had me in His hands all along...


we can not always see our futures.  but God has our backs.

it may not always be what we wanted?  but it's always for His and our best...

we just need to see things in His light...

and not be blinded by our desires and faithlessness...

i found myself in hole.

but God filled it up...

and even more....