I can honestly say...
Hmmmm... Hrrmmmm
Twenty years is a long long time...
And for that matter... so is thirty-three years
And so is twenty-seven years
Let's get this out of the way... A LOT HAS CHANGED
But that would be true for not just anyone but for everyone
So... why is it different for me?
Initially, I started writing here as a way to work through grief and life changes. I was processing grief and being a single full time working dad of a toddler and coming to grips of what that meant...
And ya know, it's been really helpful. In mor ethan just getting thoughts out but being able to write, read and reflect...
Yeah so... I also wrote about random things as a way to keep myself entertained…
Yup, that’s right, I admit it… I really don’t care about your experience here... AT ALL…
But now that I’ve picked up this again, a whole lot has changed in my life and I’m on the verge of another life change, albeit this one unlike the others is planned. Prepared? Maybe not as much as I initially wanted to be but that’s my take away here.
I don’t have to finish “well” or “strong” or what others might tell or expect you to. I have just to finish ‘this” and then start the "that". Because that’s what it’s all about, yeah? We all have things we’ve wanted to do except “I was in the midst of my career” or “raising kids? man that schitte is hard and time consuming”. So… when? And why not now?
I don’t always have to have everything planned to start at "D" Day, "H" Hour. I don’t need a statement of work with bullet points outlining my intentions, or a manifesto.
Because all those details?
They’re part of the journey and the experience… living and discovering what Life has in store.
And from that reflection 10yrs ago?
Our perception and understanding of our Maker changes over time, and well it should!
But I still feel mostly the same except… now I know more than ever that some of that is my choices too.
However it is that you view, believe, imagine, envision Him/Her/They to be, ultimately, it’s up to us to make the good choices. It’s not that by making good choices we end up where we are? It’s that we make the good, self-less, loving and kind choices in Life. Because that, that… is what’s really important. Not us and what happens to us, but the choices we make in how we treat our fellow travelers.
Have I been kind
Have I been loving?
Have I been patient?
And, have I been compassionate?
Have I given grace?
Have I sought peace?
Those are the things we can control and in the end?
That, is all that’s important.
Because that's all we can control.
And that’s what, in a nutshell I’ve decided is what is really important…
